Is it weird to ask out an Instagram follower? He’s v handsome and likes a lot of my crap. And how would one do that anyways?
I’ve been feeling really centered lately, and just really good. I was on my way home from work and I put on a mix cd given to me a few months back. All this music seemed so new to me again. My mind started to wander about relationships.
(side note—a friend of mine broke up with her bf of almost 8 years. they had a mini break-up over the summer and got back together. Well, it didn’t stick this time unfortunately.) They have been on my mind too.
So, I think the reason I dwell on things and it takes me a while to get over someone is I have never had proper closure with those around me. I have had three people very close to me die, my uncle (I was 10), my best friends’s mom (16) and my grandma (19). I attended rosaries and memorials, but never went to their funerals. My grandmother’s death I took very hard. It wasn’t a surprise, she was in hospice care at the house and was given 6 months to live. Then one day, I came home and my mom told me that she was actively dying. Within days, she died, quietly, asleep, with a rosary in her hands. While I had had plenty of time to grieve and say goodbye, I never got to send her off.
The only funeral I attended was my mom’s boss’ life long friend. I knew the lady, but I wasn’t particularly close to her. I had to ask myself if I’d attend my parents’ funerals when the time comes. I probably would, but the fact I asked myself that.